Writing blogs lately has been difficult. You could say that I'm in a bit of a blog fog. Ministry life can be complicated, and many of the issues I sort out in my mind aren't appropriate for the blog. Raise your hand if you would like me to blog about the conversations we've had in the last few weeks? That's what I thought. I don't see any hands.
Also, the start of middle school for Kyle has been less than stellar. His core subject teachers are long-term substitutes. His elective is exploratory arts, and his teacher is reviewing 3rd and 4th grade math instead of exploring art. Making contact with the school has been next to impossible, so I went to the school this morning and told the office ladies that I was going to plant myself in the waiting area until I was able to speak with someone. After having a strong conversation with the office manager, (who, by the way, is very good at her job) I was assured I would receive a phone call from the principal within a couple of hours. The principal did call. We had a decent but not helpful conversation, so I have a meeting with her on Monday afternoon. I'm very confused about which direction to pursue for Kyle.
The point of this post is that I'm feeling a bit discombobulated. Moxie needs some attention. I would like to make a to-do list, but I'm not sure where to start. My kids schedules are in overdrive. Kyle's school is disorganized and I will advocate for him. My house needs a good cleaning. Our internet is broken, and the swamp cooler makes our house a sticky wet mess. If anyone needs to humidify your plants, just let me know.
This stuff is small potatoes. Kyle's education is definitely important. The women of Moxie are one of my priorities. But, who cares if I have a dirty house or internet or a swamp cooler? Because of God's great love for me and his new mercies every morning, I will not allow drama to overtake my heart. Do you ever experience that gnawing feeling pressing down, that feeling that sneaks up and makes everything feel huge, overwhelming, and impossible? I don't want to over-simply because some situations are huge and overwhelming, but I'm not going to get bogged down in the drama my heart sometimes tries to create. Asking God to provide my family's daily bread, not leaning on my own understanding, and not worrying about tomorrow minimizes drama in the best way.
I pray that you are able to discern situations in your life that need attention or are just drama filled distractions. Prayerfully, my mind will soon be a place in which I can blog about a good meaty topic! Or maybe something really good, funny, and embarrassing will happen about which I can tell the world! But for now, I'll keep thinking, praying, processing, and surrendering. Thanks for being patient with me.