Bursting at the Seams

I've been struggling with posting blogs lately. It definitely isn't for lack of topics to write about. Mostly, my head is spinning with so much that it is difficult for me to sit down and write out something that will make sense. Last week in Chad's message he said that he gets smarter by talking. In case that doesn't make sense to you, it basically means that organization comes to his thoughts while he is processing out loud with someone who actively engages. More ideas are generated through talking which leads to more clarification and organization. He is definitely an external processor. And so am I. To sit and write something out that I haven't really had the opportunity to talk through takes a lot of time and discipline. Please know that I do engage in the discipline of sitting, thinking, and listening, but it is not my natural tendency. When I have so, so, so much going on in my head I have to make idea webs in my journal just to make sense of it all. I can't just sit and make co-herent sentences when my brain is stuffed full. It would seriously be a jumbled mess. All that to say, I've been struggling with posting blogs lately.

The plan is to unpack and write some of the things God is teaching me through the next few weeks. But, I don't want to lose you by not being faithful in writing so I'm going to give you some highlights of what is in my brain. I'm looking forward to seeing how God brings it all together.

• caring for the widow, the orphan, the immigrant, the poor
• living out His righteousness
• what is going on next in Second Mile
• the faith of a mustard seed (Oh, this is a good one. I can't wait to tell you about it.)
• Not using the crutch or deflection tactic of talking about the lies I believe, but actually moving to repentance when he reveals issues in my heart
• fear of failure as a leader
• insecurities
• wisdom from God and not selfish ambition or bitter envy
• processing so much from the James series

These aren't light topics. Most of them are life changing for me and my family, and hopefully, for those I have the privilege of leading. I once heard that many American Christians stop learning when they turn 30 and just coast and pretend to hear new things from Jesus as they age. To be honest, this terrified me. I begged God to not let that be true of my life, that he would teach me, stretch me, and grow me until I meet him face to face. Almost eight years past thirty he has not disappointed.

What are some highlights of what God has been revealing to you lately?