"Her kitchen is so pretty."
"That lady has the most amazing figure. I wonder how much she works-out. Oh great. She's probably a runner and I hate to run."
"I will never be able to fix my hair as well as she does."
"Her blog is amazing."
"How in the world did she gain so many followers so fast and how can I do that?"
"Of course she's guest blogging again. She's the guest blogger of the universe."
"Her pictures are perfect. Her kids are perfect. Her hair is perfect. She must be perfect."
"I must have sounded like an idiot when I prayed out loud just now."
"I wish I knew as much about the Bible as she knows."
"I should write some more profound stuff about God on my blog to keep up with all the other amazing bloggers in the entire world."
Ick. For reals.
Lately, I've had to confess to Jesus the comparison in my heart. I've asked him to remind me of the roles of leadership he has given me and to increase the joy and delight in my heart as I serve Him.
On Saturday, I was having breakfast with a few friends and talked to them about how strange it is that I have 71 followers. A couple of them told me they always read my blog but they weren't official followers. I jokingly said, "Come on! Sign up!" Another friend asked why they needed to if they already read it regularly. I replied, "You don't. It's just to make me feel good." We all had a nice laugh.
In terms of the blog world, I started this blog to have more influence in the lives of the women of Moxie. Through my blog I'm able to communicate with the women of my church through a very convenient and frequent venue. I did not foresee that I would gain followers outside of my local ministry. To be honest, it's pretty cool. I enjoy reading and following other blogs. Of course I welcome more followers, I just want to make sure my motives are to glorify Jesus only.
Not myself. Not my family. Not Moxie.
My encouragement and joy comes as I look to Jesus to find my significance, purpose, and contentment. Whether you are a blogger or not, wherever you have influence...school, job, home, the gym, the market...let's commit to one another to run our own race without comparison to the glory of Christ alone. Sound good?